Race and consiousness

Blonde and blue eyes
Black and black eyes

Long legs and small face
Short legs and big face

Big round eyes
Narrow sharp eyes

Race..or more like speices??
We are all humans

We all talk, walk, eat, dress, laugh, sleep and live

But i cant or dont do things like they do
They cant or dont do thinkgs like i do

Its not something people should feel inferior to or superior to
Thats just the way it is
Thats how each one of us is built and how our mindset is cultivated

But theres been something stuck in me. Still
Deep down inside, im looking down on Japan and myself
Deep down inside, im looking up on 'the West'
Buildings, life style, how people carry themselves around, the colour of cities, the smell of cities, even the colour of the sky

Then where is this coming from? 
How many times have i asked myself this question...

Hmm...
Simple attraction they give off
Simple admiration for something i dont have
Or... my dad always talking shit about Japan and comparing it to Europe...

I did not like this feeling in myself
So spent a year in California
Found out that Japan and the US both have its upside and downside
Even in Cali where its supposed to be one of the comfortable places to live
I started to like Japan afterwards
Found some things i can be proud of

This trip, discovering the other parts of the world
will prolly end up
Rediscovering Japan, and myself as one who grew up in a small island called Japan

Who am i
What were the factors that tuned me as who i am now
What do i like about myself
What do i not like about myself

What do i want with my life


Never a single answer
Multipul answers

And thats fine
I myself am too complicated to begin with
What i want had never been able to be drawn in a complete picture


Hope i can add some more lines to it