Race and consiousness

Blonde and blue eyes
Black and black eyes

Long legs and small face
Short legs and big face

Big round eyes
Narrow sharp eyes

Race..or more like speices??
We are all humans

We all talk, walk, eat, dress, laugh, sleep and live

But i cant or dont do things like they do
They cant or dont do thinkgs like i do

Its not something people should feel inferior to or superior to
Thats just the way it is
Thats how each one of us is built and how our mindset is cultivated

But theres been something stuck in me. Still
Deep down inside, im looking down on Japan and myself
Deep down inside, im looking up on 'the West'
Buildings, life style, how people carry themselves around, the colour of cities, the smell of cities, even the colour of the sky

Then where is this coming from? 
How many times have i asked myself this question...

Hmm...
Simple attraction they give off
Simple admiration for something i dont have
Or... my dad always talking shit about Japan and comparing it to Europe...

I did not like this feeling in myself
So spent a year in California
Found out that Japan and the US both have its upside and downside
Even in Cali where its supposed to be one of the comfortable places to live
I started to like Japan afterwards
Found some things i can be proud of

This trip, discovering the other parts of the world
will prolly end up
Rediscovering Japan, and myself as one who grew up in a small island called Japan

Who am i
What were the factors that tuned me as who i am now
What do i like about myself
What do i not like about myself

What do i want with my life


Never a single answer
Multipul answers

And thats fine
I myself am too complicated to begin with
What i want had never been able to be drawn in a complete picture


Hope i can add some more lines to it

People

People
Girls. Boys.
 Ladies. Men. 

Jewelies.  Watches.
Skirts. Geans. 
Cigarretes. Cigarretes. 

Scarfs. Hats. 
Laughes. Smiles. 
Sneakers. Sneakers. 

Glass. Pitcher. 
Shorter. Taller. 
Icecream. Icecream. 


They all come down to...
Love. Love. 

Hamburg

I like this
This feeling of loneliness

Sitting here on the bench alone
Missing the people i love

Sitting here on the bench alone
Letting this feeling sink in myself

Sitting here on the bench alone

Scenes come in and go
Thoughts come in and go

Dreams come in and go
Regrets come in and...disappear

Tokoyo. Hamburg. 
Japan. Germany. 

I like this
This feeling of 'the world and me'

Thats why i love traveling
Thats why i cant just stay at one place
Thats why i really wanted to make this trip come true

Life is too short to let it go through
The world is too big to wait for it to come to you

I dont wanna miss out on anything
The world is 'definitely' bigger than you think

A brief stop at Taipei, Taiwan

As i had about 6hours until my connecting flight, i decided to explore Taipei.

Took me an hour on the bus to get there and another hour to come back.
I was oly there for an hour or even shorter in the end but it was very interesting.
My first visit to an Asian city, alot different from the world ive known.

Ppl bike everywhere. I only saw one person on a bike.
Taipei main station reminds me of Shinjuku east exit.
I tended to look for similarities maybe because the stress i felt from not being able to communicate well and understand what people were talking was bigger than i expected.
Gosh it tired me out...
But really liked the part that ppl gather at bike shops and chat alot. Def felt the community there.

This came to my mind. A famous line by some well-known communication studies scholar.

"people cannot not communicate"

Yes, the circle of people, it is!

My last longass adventure has finally begun...

From June 23rd thruough Sep 5th, i decidec to use these months to really look at me inside and listen to my inner voice. i havent done it for quite awhile as i had been sort of getting carried away with 'whats fun at the moment'...

I kind of developed this mentality of always looking for something fun and going crazy, thanks to or because of? this someone. But ive come to te point where i feel like ive had enough of it recently.or maybe ive come to the point where i simply should move on to a next level in life.

Always looking for something exciting, something inspiring, something that opens up my world.
Im always up for something new, dont wanna miss out on anything.
Thats never gonna change no matter where i am or what im doing.
But this trip, i want to keep asking myself
'What does working mean to me? Why do i do what i do?'
Discover and touch various other mindsets, 'common sense', and life styles, because i dont wanna miss out on anything.
Cas if you dont know something, if you dont know spmething exists, that means that something doesnt exist, in your world. How sad is that?! I cant just bear the thought of it. If i am given opportunities, im def taking them.
If you think you know things, you have lived in your own little world.
Theres alot to learn and experience out there in the world!!

I am really fortunate to go on this trip at this phase of my life.
Making a transtion from a student to an adult..from college to the real world.

this trip is definitely gonna be a life-time treasure.
I appreciate this opportunity and im gonna make the most of it.

Off to Frankfurt!!